piro beonjin ne ppyame
heureneun ibyeol
waenyago mutneun neoui
ipsuri seulpeo
“Please let me go…”
“I can’t… I love you too much to let you go…”
ani dagaojima geureon pyojeong
jitjido ma
geunyang nareul
jinachyeoga
You turned to face him with a sad smile, caressing his
cheeks softly and trying to feel him one last time. You know this will break
him but it was for the best. It was mainly for his best after all. He stirred
but did not wake up.
You left the bed quietly, kissing him goodbye before closing
the door to your—his apartment.
Forever.
The chemotherapy was hell, it was killing you bit by bit.
Your body underwent changes from plump and healthy to sickly and thin. But
there was nothing you can do. The cancer was eating you day by day. And him?
You’re sure he went crazy trying to search for you. Hakyeon had said so.
sueobsi soksagideon
sarangui mareun
challae buseojineun
uri dal yaksogun
You’re sorry, of course you do, you had loved him all your
life. And you’re sorry you can’t fulfill the promise to be by his side forever.
It’s not like it doesn’t hurt you either. But you can’t let him see you slowly
dying in front of him, withering just like a unkempt flower.
geunyang nareul dasi
ana
‘I want to feel your
arms around me once more…’
saranghaetda
akkyeosseotda geuppeunida
saranghanda miwojin
geot geu iyu hanaya
I’m dying. The night you left me is the night you render me
tortured, broken, dead.I thought you
said you loved me. I loved you with all my life. I cared for you, always. Why
did you do this to me? Don’t you love me anymore?
But then, I loved you, yes I do. Only that I think it had
turned into hate. I feel like I hated you, oh yes I do.
You clutched onto Hakyeon’s arm, one hand still holding the
letter that he had sent you through the man, his best friend. It was now
crumpled and you brought it to your lips, kissing the paper bearing his
handwriting gently while trying to muffle the sobs from spilling out. From the
corner of your eyes, you can see Hakyeon watching you with sympathy before
closing your eyes to conjure a picture of Leo in your mind.
naega neoreul
moreulgenni naege geotjitmalhajanha
nal saranghajanha neon
geudaerojanha
He had said he hated you, but from the blotches that had
ruined his cursive handwritings, you’ve known better.
You love him and so do him too.
neol saranghaji anha
No, I don’t love you. Not anymore.
saranghanda ani nal
sarang an handa
kkochipeul ttada geujo
hayeomeobsi geunda
You thought about the words etched on the paper he wrote his
letter in, the words is like a razor in your head. No matter how convinced you
are that he was just trying to lie (he’s trying to lie to himself) but you
can’t stand the thought of him hating you.
You twisted the rose’s petals off one by one as you cried
ceaselessly.
mianhae apahaetdeon
sigandeul noreul dasin nochiji anha
naege angyeo ijen
The crying had its’ toll on you, you were bedridden as it
had you on high blood pressure. It was because of the stress on crying. But
crying helps me off stress though no one understands nor believe me.
Then one night, your breath labours and the heart machine
beeped loudly. Maybe it was your time?
’I’m sorry, Leo,” you said. ‘Goodbye…’
saranghanda
saranghanda geu ppunida
saekkamake ta
deureogan simjangi teojyeodo
When I heard the real story on why she had left me, I run
leaving Hakyeon alone, running towards her in hope that I wasn’t too late to
tell her how much I had loved her and there’s not an ounce of hate for her to
bring it home.
‘I love you!’ I screamed in my mind, hoping it will reach
her in a way only lovers can.
ijen yeogi meomureulge
naege haejulge manhaseo
gapeulge manhaseo
neomu gomawoseo
You are in a limbo where you’re less than a human but less
than a spirit. You looked around only to realize that you’re actually still in
the hospital room where you’re first placed in. And it was as it you’re
actually waiting for someone to come and visit you one last time. And you might
know who it is.
You watched Leo burst into your hospital room, his face
drenched with tears that was still sliding down his cheeks. A voice told you to
go back into your body, warning you that you have only some time to meet him.
You realized that it was the death angel, he had given you chance to thank Leo.
You had owed him a lot of things anyway.
meorijijima uri
(meorijijima uri)
As you woke up from the comatose state you’re in, you told
him everything that he had always wanted to know, the baby that he didn’t get
to meet and how much you loved him when the heart machine beeped, signaling it
was time for you to go. With a final kiss, you closed your eyes and into the
forever world, leaving him to mourn you for the length of life he had left.